"I'm home," she whispered in an echo, reminding herself of that fact. It was important to know, to really feel it, but it couldn't change the memories that haunted her every moment.

"Letting them fade," she continued with a slight shake of her head, "that's not... They made me kill people, Todd. Hundreds of people. And I remember how each one of them felt when it happened."

Tears slipped down her cheeks and she turned her face into the pillow.