If he knew even half of what she was thinking, Steve would refute every single thing she was thinking. He didn't deserve an ordinary girl, and it didn't matter what anyone else thought he deserved, anyway; he'd chosen Rogue, and it was his choice.
"Bushwa," Steve said emphatically. What she was saying was utter bullshit, and he wanted her to know it. "I didn't say it was too much, I said it was a lot to process. You're really bad at listening to what people actually say, aren't you?" He chided. "I ain't goin' anywhere, I said that too, and I damn well meant it. Now, if I'm gonna shut up and take it when you compliment me, you need to stop all this nonsense about me leaving, and just accept the fact that you're stuck with me. You wanna leave--" his throat closed up in panic at the thought, but he forced a swallow, breathed for just a moment, and continued. "You wanna leave, really want to, for you and not for me, then... I won't stop you. But if you get it in your head that you're doin' me any favors by leaving, then you're dead wrong. This is my choice, and I..."
He had to squeeze his eyes shut, and pulled her closer, resting his head against her shoulder. He thought about his choice to crash the plane, and how his one regret was knowing he was losing Peggy. He wasn't going to make that choice again.
He couldn't stop his tears, and she could surely hear them in his voice, which cracked when he next spoke. "I can't lose you, too. You're about the only thing that makes any sense to me, and I'm not giving that up without a fight."
here! /throws feels at you
"Bushwa," Steve said emphatically. What she was saying was utter bullshit, and he wanted her to know it. "I didn't say it was too much, I said it was a lot to process. You're really bad at listening to what people actually say, aren't you?" He chided. "I ain't goin' anywhere, I said that too, and I damn well meant it. Now, if I'm gonna shut up and take it when you compliment me, you need to stop all this nonsense about me leaving, and just accept the fact that you're stuck with me. You wanna leave--" his throat closed up in panic at the thought, but he forced a swallow, breathed for just a moment, and continued. "You wanna leave, really want to, for you and not for me, then... I won't stop you. But if you get it in your head that you're doin' me any favors by leaving, then you're dead wrong. This is my choice, and I..."
He had to squeeze his eyes shut, and pulled her closer, resting his head against her shoulder. He thought about his choice to crash the plane, and how his one regret was knowing he was losing Peggy. He wasn't going to make that choice again.
He couldn't stop his tears, and she could surely hear them in his voice, which cracked when he next spoke. "I can't lose you, too. You're about the only thing that makes any sense to me, and I'm not giving that up without a fight."